I’m 28 years old and live in the Midwest. I’m intersex, but I identify as female. I am not out about being born intersex. Because of surgeries and hormones, I look like a fairly attractive female. I have been hanging out with a chill hetero guy, and things are getting very flirty. Is it unethical of me to not disclose my intersex-ness to him?
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“We all have to make decisions about what we disclose to partners or potential partners and when we disclose it,” said Alice Dreger, historian of medicine and science, sex researcher, and author.
Dreger, for readers who may not be familiar with her, is the founding board chair person of the Intersex Society of North America and the author of Galileo’s Middle Finger: Heretics, Activists, and One Scholar’s Search for Justice. (Follow Alice Dreger on Twitter: @AliceDreger.) Intersex, for readers who may not be familiar with the word, is an umbrella term covering dozens of different inborn conditions.
“They all involve someone having something other than the standard male or standard female body as those are defined by doctors,” explained Dreger. “There are lots of different ways to be intersex, including some so subtle that you might never even know you had that particular variation of development.”
So that chill hetero boy you’re thinking about disclosing your intersex-ness to, INTER? He could be intersex himself and not know it. But you do know it, and does “knowing it” obligate you to disclose?
“Lying is a bad idea, of course, but she’s not lying by presenting herself as a woman and identifying as a woman,” said Dreger. “She is a woman, just one whose body came with some parts that aren’t common to most women, or maybe lacking some parts that are common to most women, depending on her particular intersex condition.”
Dreger suggests making a mental list of the things a long-term partner might want, need or have a right to know about your history and your body. Then using your best judgment, INTER, decide what to share with him and when to share it.
“For example,” said Dreger, “if this chill hetero guy talks about wanting kids someday, and the letter writer is infertile, she might want to mention sooner rather than later that she was born with a condition that left her infertile. Do her genitals look or work differently than he might be expecting? If so, she might think about when it would be best to give him some guidance about how her body is a little different and what works best for her.”
Each of us has to balance our partner’s legitimate right to certain information, INTER, with our right to medical privacy as well as our physical and emotional safety.
“There’s no reason for her to feel like she has to announce, ‘I’m an intersex woman.’ She could opt to say, at some point, ‘I was born with congenital adrenal hyperplasia,’ or ‘I was born with androgen insensitivity syndrome,’ or whatever her specific condition might be, and then answer his questions,” said Dreger. “If the label ‘intersex’ were part of her core identity—a critical part of who she feels she is—then she might want to tell him early on, just as someone might talk about her ethnicity if that’s really important to her. But otherwise, she can disclose just like non-intersex people do with regard to fertility, sexual health, sexual sensation, sexual preferences and sexual function—at a pace and in a way that promotes a good relationship and makes her feel honest and understood. And no one can tell her she has to use the term ‘intersex.’ That’s entirely up to her.”
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My husband looks at porn . . . porn of women with a body type almost the polar opposite of mine. . . . Example: big boobs and tattoos. . . . Does that mean he’s no longer attracted to my body? I’m so confused. . . . He says I’m hot and sexy, but what he looks at does NOT make me feel that way.
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Is it possible your partner is attracted to . . . more than one body type? Example: Your body type and its polar opposite?
And if your partner were looking at porn that featured women with your exact body type . . . would you feel affirmed? Or would you be writing to ask me why your husband looks at porn of women with your exact body type when he can look at you? And is your husband sharing his porn with you . . . or are you combing through his browser history? Either way, PORN, if looking at what he’s looking at makes you sad . . . maybe you should stop looking at what he’s looking at? And if he’s not neglecting you sexually . . . if he isn’t just saying he finds you hot and sexy, but showing you he does . . . why waste time policing his fantasies?
People enjoy what they have and fantasize about what they don’t. So long as we don’t take what we have for granted . . . it’s not a problem . . . unless we decide to make it one.
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What are your favorite uses for the butt plug besides putting it in your own butt or someone else’s butt?
Fun Faggy Question
They make lovely paperweights, FFQ, and perfectly proportioned pacifiers for adult babies. But at our place, we use decommissioned butt plugs to play cornhole—which is a beanbag toss game that became popular in the Midwest some years after I moved to the West Coast. (It’s true. Google it.) When I was a kid, we were instructed to run from drunk uncles at family picnics who suggested a little cornholing before dinner. But that was then.
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We all have to die, Dan. How would you most like to go?
Genuinely Not A Threat
In a tragic rimming accident.
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My partner and I got married last weekend. For his vows, he wrote a hilarious, wonderful song. (He’s a professional singer in Los Angeles, so the song was pretty spectacular.) I’m a Femme Dom who loves ropes, while he’s pretty vanilla. Despite that, we’ve had a dynamite sex life for the past eight years, in part because he’s so GGG. Early on, I got him to start reading your column, and that concept made a huge impression on him. Here’s the verse from his song/vows that you inspired: “Now next I should obey you/But that one’s a little tricky/I’m what you call “vanilla”/And on top of that, I’m picky/Instead of blind obedience/I hope it’s understood/I promise to continue/Being giving, game and good!” Thanks for all you do!
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Congrats on your wedding, BRIDLE, and thanks for a lovely note—one that will give hope to kink-discordant couples everywhere. Perfect fits, sexually speaking, are rare. But whip a little GGG into the mix, and that imperfect fit can become a perfect match!