Boy Crazy

The sad chronicles of a man who wants a boy to love him

[. . .]

Billy, even if you do not want to keep in touch with me or continue our relationship, please please don't lie like you have been. It's already hurt me enough. You may hurt someone you care about more than me.

[. . .]

Nielsen to boy: "I did not want it to be the end. But I cannot control you." Photo by Jack Gould
Nielsen to boy: "I did not want it to be the end. But I cannot control you." Photo by Jack Gould

I should not have written you this letter today. You said that today (Monday) you would be writing me a letter! Have you? I don't know if you like me to write or if you want me to send you these USC news clips. But, I won't send them anymore if you won't write me. I gave you plenty stamps and envelopes. I don't know what else it takes. Unless, that is, that you have decided that there are other things in your life more important than continuing a relationship with me. If that is the case, then I have been used by you. I hope that you will think about this and be honest with me. I also hope that—if we are to continue our relationship—you will be able to come visit for New Years. USC is almost guaranteed to be in the Rose Bowl and I'd love for you to come to the game with me. Anyway, I'd better go. I'm running out of paper. If you write, please don't be brief. I miss you very much. I hope you miss me too.

Love,

Jeff

10/15, 10:30 p.m.

Billy,

Enclosed are the usual press clips for your enjoyment. USC, 6-0. And, guess what? None of it will mean anything unless we beat Notre LAME and UCLA. You will probably get this before the N.D. game this Saturday, so remember to watch the game if you have time.

[. . .]

So, here's a rundown of what is going on out here in Calif! The weather is cooling down a little. It's called an "Indian Fall" out here. That is cool, crisp nights and mild, warm days. It is dry.

[. . .]

With me, everything is hectic right now. The campaign is really getting into full swing. I walked precincts with the candidate, Scott Baugh, today. We knocked on doors and talked to people while dropping off literature. We must have gone to 200+ houses. My legs feel like they're going to fall off!

[. . .]

My room is finally painted a nice color. You will see when you come out.

[. . .]

I called you Saturday (yesterday) and left a message asking you to beep me this weekend so I would know you were home and I could then call you. But, I didn't hear from you. So, I'll ask you now. You will probably get this letter Wednesday or Thursday. I know you have band Wednesday night. So, page me BEFORE FRIDAY NIGHT (your time). But before you do, please try to work out with your folks if (and when) you can come out for New Years. USC is about an inch away from the Rose Bowl, and the sooner I know you're coming, the sooner I can get you a ticket—'cause they're going fast. Remember, now, I will pay for your airfare. This trip is not going to cost you anything.

[. . .]

I would love to see you again. I hope you would like to see me, too. I miss you lots.

[. . .]

I went to church at Mariners today and the pastor (Kenton) talked about a really cool verse from Proverbs. It says basically 'trust in God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.' Think about that. I did. If you're doing something on the 'wrong path,' look to God. Don't trust in what ANYONE tells you to do. Trust ONLY in God. But, he won't answer your questions unless you read his word ALONE and pray to him ALONE. Only you can do it. High school is full of pitfalls. Stick close to God, Little Guy. Don't get lost in the crowd. Hang in there with your grades; remember they come ahead of social and extra-curricular stuff.

[. . .]

You ARE smart. You can do it. I don't care what anyone says. Well, I best go. I'm about ready to pass out. Remember: page me on my beeper before Friday night your time. I will call you immediately. We need to discuss if you are going to come out for New Years . . . Oh, and WRITE ME, DARN IT! I LOVE YOU TONS! Have a great day, night, whatever it is . . .

Love,

Jeff

PS: The picture of you and me is still up. I hope yours is, too.

10/29

Dear Billy,

It was really nice to get a letter from you and for you to call me. I understand that you are not able to call me as much as I call you. Just tell me when you want me to call. I don't mind being the one doing the calling, as long as you're there to receive the call. In fact, right now as you're reading this—write down on your calendar or make a note to yourself somewhere: I am going to call you on THIS THURSDAY, NOV. 2 at 8:30 PM YOUR TIME. Write it down now… I'll wait. Done? Ok. So, here's what's going on with me. On Friday, Tom Fuentes (the chairman of the OC Republican Party) called me and wanted me to meet him at Macy's at South Coast Plaza. I got there and he bought me a suit. Then he took me to dinner and the sauna at the ritzy Balboa Bay Club. [Name deleted] told me he likes to reward hard-working young Republicans that he likes and he knows are going to go far. It was really rewarding. As you know, I've been working really hard on the Scott Baugh campaign. Election Day is Tuesday, Nov. 28. The only time I'm not working is when I'm watching a USC game, at church, asleep or writing you . . . or trying to get my law school applications together. I've got both my USC and Chapman applications typed. I'm working on getting all of my Letters of Recommendation together now. I've got Rohrabacher, Flanagan and Fuentes done. Today I found out that this guy who is the state chair of the Republican Party, Mike Schroeder (a friend of Rohrabacher), would also write me a letter of rec. It's really good that he does because he's on the board of trustees at USC Law School.

« Previous Page
 |
 
1
 
2
 
3
 
4
 
5
 
All
 
Next Page »
 
My Voice Nation Help
0 comments
 
Anaheim Concert Tickets

Around The Web

Loading...