Meanwhile, Susan is facing the prospect that she might have to find a new bikini. "I don't want to think about that-not after all it took to find this one," she says. "But late last summer, the little plastic thing that adjusts the shoulder strap broke. I've tried gluing it, but it hasn't worked, and I haven't figured out what else to do. The idea of searching for another bikini is almost traumatic. Because it's got to be perfect, you know. It's got to be you. With a bikini, you can't fake it."